Hump Day

Wednesday. Middle of the week. Hump day.

My mom will be here on Friday and we are all very excited. As long as Mt. Redoubt doesn't blow that day, everything should go as planned. Its been pretty quiet.

My birthday is coming up soon too. Monday. I will be 34 years old. I was planning a spa day for all the girls here, but that seems like a lot of planning on my part and I would rather do something with less hassle/stress. Nothing like making your birthday celebration stressful when you don't have too. Instead I think I will do my own spa day, maybe with Kristen and my mom and call it good. I really do need some "work" on my hair and my feet are pretty ugly. Dave's feet are "prettier" than mine. He never ever walks around without socks on.

This time last year I was pregnant and didn't know it. It turned out to be an ectopic pregancy and on February 11th (Kristen's birthday), I found out and had surgery to remove my left fallopian tube where the baby had implanted. It's sad for me. I haven't had too hard a time dealing with it except initially, but now that I think back and it comes around to that time of year again, its sad. I am a girl (duh) and emotional at times (duh!) and we tend to overthink/over-analyze at times. So even though the pregnancy was doomed from the beginning, I sit and wonder what-ifs? I also wonder if I ever get "my tubes tied" if the surgery will be half the time since I only have 1 tube to tie. Should be half the cost too, right?

Ok...time to get going with school stuff.

Why, why, why, why...but why?!

I actually didn't totally realize how much I said, "Because I said so" until after starting this blog. And I find myself trying to give other answers, but when you keep hearing, "why?" after each answer you give, it breaks you down a bit and you have to reply with something more powerful! And then you still get a "why?". I really dislike that word. I know all the experts would say its great when kids ask why, they are being inquisitive and learning so much and nerve pathways in the brain are growing and connecting and if they don't use them, they lose them. Well from my perspective, my kids can stand to lose a few! If I could just have 33 less "why's?" a day....we would be doing good and I wouldn't even be writing about it.

Do you really know where your kids get their "brains"? They steal them from you with every little question and why that follows...it slowly (or not so slowly in my case) eats at your brain, so while their brain is growing, yours is shrinking! I know you have heard of "mommy brain"....it starts with simple little things like losing your keys or forgeting the diaper bag at home and grows into forgetting your kids at the grocery store (or the shoe store in Logan's case). I have resorted to counting heads (like a daycare) in order to make sure I have all of them with me when we are out. And I know you might be saying, "well, you do have 5 kids!" and that is exactly correct....I have 5 - FIVE - kids eating at my brain all day everyday!! It's amazing I am not sitting in a rubber room at the psych hospital right now. And I am sure as daddy would be explaining to Logan that mommy is at the hospital right now cause she went nuts, Logan would say, "why?"! And he would look totally innocent saying it too!

By the way, if you don't believe me, think about your own parents and their current capabilities. For example, my mom cannot operate a DVD player and has difficulties setting up her answering machine. Things that I often say "a monkey could do". I am sure as children my brothers and I stole that part of her brain with the constant nagging.